i did know

one week today since... at first it was a personal thing with personal reasons. i had revelation last night that this whole thing has a plan and a moral. like most of the things that come with that package; what seems like a simple reason with a simple solution is much bigger. all the reasons i knew but didn’t want to believe. now that i hear things from time to time i begin to wonder. that is bad, i know to go directly to the source but why when that is the cause? the point of being cryptic is for me to understand the picture as a whole. im not good at doing that i automatically assume the worse and that all this mess is my fault. how can i see that thing will work out as they are intended to and not how i necessarily want them to go. tough lesson that i battle every second and every day of my life.

*SIGH*

I haven’t had much to say in a while... not sure what to blog about. I could talk some more about my feelings and sorrows, my life and job, my family and friends bla bla blaaa! I have no idea what to write about! I have some things that i have written that stay private because of certain reasons. I like to write and babble about things but can’t think of anything to type. :(